i'm obsessed with her
i must try to emulate her poise

poise 1 |poiz|
1 graceful and elegant bearing in a person : poise and good deportment can be cultivated.
composure and dignity of manner : at least he had a moment to think, to recover his poise.
2 archaic balance; equilibrium.
be or cause to be balanced or suspended : [ intrans. ] he poised motionless on his toes | [ trans. ] figurative the world was poised between peace and war.